i don't like this feeling. i know it only means i care, but it's horrible. you know that feeling when someone you really love is in terrible pain? and you feel like ... you're feeling exactly like them. you can feel their pain. it's this ripping, tearing feeling in my chest and it won't go away until i know this person is okay. and i'm not sure they will be. if this person leaves ... god, i don't know what i'm gonna do. how could i possibly live, when the most amazing person i have ever known isn't? i think i would want to die myself. just thinking about the image of them, not being there, makes me feel like life has lost all meaning.
is this love? i am certain it is. am i too young to feel love? apparently, people my age are. but i disagree, because i don't think this is just a teenage crush. you don't spend a year on a teenage crush. teenage crushes don't make you feel like you would take a bullet for someone, do absolutely anything for them, until you make them smile. i don't think you're too young to be in love. i'm living proof of that.
i guess you really do never forget your first love. even when they didn't feel the same, it stays in your heart always. maybe i haven't forgotten because it's not over yet.
god, i feel so fucking helpless! i'm trying with all i have to be there for this person, but nothing can make him feel better. nothing. it's the worst feeling in the world. wanting to do something yet there is no way you can control the situation. i wish he knew, i wish he understood. but in the state he's in right now, i don't know if he can think straight. i hope one day he knows how much i care for him now.
sorry but you can't let stuff like thaaat ^^^ bottled up inside ya, you know?
is this love? i am certain it is. am i too young to feel love? apparently, people my age are. but i disagree, because i don't think this is just a teenage crush. you don't spend a year on a teenage crush. teenage crushes don't make you feel like you would take a bullet for someone, do absolutely anything for them, until you make them smile. i don't think you're too young to be in love. i'm living proof of that.
i guess you really do never forget your first love. even when they didn't feel the same, it stays in your heart always. maybe i haven't forgotten because it's not over yet.
god, i feel so fucking helpless! i'm trying with all i have to be there for this person, but nothing can make him feel better. nothing. it's the worst feeling in the world. wanting to do something yet there is no way you can control the situation. i wish he knew, i wish he understood. but in the state he's in right now, i don't know if he can think straight. i hope one day he knows how much i care for him now.
sorry but you can't let stuff like thaaat ^^^ bottled up inside ya, you know?
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Never too young, Jess. I think that's a bullshit idea.
yup i think it's bullshit too. obviously. lol.